I was very positive, motivated, and a little excited before the moved, I wanted to finally change my routine. After the move, I didn’t immediately start feeling unwell. I was euphoric and savoring every moment spent here, my eyes sparkled.
I encountered my first difficulties when it was time to look for a job and a place of my own. Relationship complications arose, and when I began delving into the legalization process in this country, I realized it wasn’t all that simple. I needed to change my strategy, my usual rhythm of life, and learn new things (for example, what documents are needed to find housing, how to write motivation letters, and finding references here).
With all the difficulties piled up, I felt like a failure, I was losing heart, and I often considered going back home, even though I had a job I loved, friends, and an apartment.
The biggest turning point for me was the end of my relationship, which is what prompted me to move here. I didn’t want to get up in the morning and barely found the strength to do routine tasks. I had no energy or strength to spend time with loved ones, and most importantly, I didn’t have a clear plan of action. I’ve always been used to planning everything in my life and knowing that if Plan A doesn’t work, I’ll go with Plan B. Here, all prospects seemed fuzzy, and I began to view my surroundings pessimistically.
I gained 15 kg and was stress-eating. At first, I put off meeting people because I didn’t have the resources, and then because I didn’t like the way I looked. I basically started putting my life on hold. At one point, I clearly realized, looking at myself in the mirror and also watching stories of other successful people who motivated me, that I didn’t want to live like this anymore and wouldn’t, that it was time to pull myself together and take responsibility for my life, that I was wasting the best years of my life lying in bed and that it shouldn’t be like that.
This became a powerful impetus for changing myself.
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